Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Caney River Trail in Scott's Gulf Part I


June 8, 2012.  The sun had set and we were standing at the top of the bluff with no obvious path down to the river and our campsite. We (JPD, PR, WvH and SSD) had left from what we hoped was the trailhead at 6:45 pm, figuring that we could easily cover the approximately 2 miles to our campsite in the 2 hrs before total darkness set in.  We knew that this end of the trail system was poorly marked and infrequently used, but we had figured with a GPS we should be able to make our way reasonably well. Now the sun had gone below the horizon and the afterglow was the only light to guide us.  Only half an hour into our journey, whatever trail we had been following had petered out into an open meadow which we could find no obvious trail leading from.   

Crossing through the forest, we had eventually struck a gravel road that based on the GPS seemed to be leading in the right general direction. Over the next hour, we had found several potential trails crossing this road, but each time had found that these trails quickly died out within a few hundred yards of the road. So we had given up on trying each of the many openings into the forest. Unfortunately for us, we had just discovered that the gravel road was the one marked as a dead end on our map.  Still based on our GPS we were only about half a mile from the river, which based on our map, we could follow to our campsite, so we remained optimistic. 

Turning on our headlamps, we found a faint trail leading beyond the chained off end of the gravel road, and figured this was our best hope. Then in the narrow glow of my headlamp, we realized that the open space we were walking towards was the edge of the cliff.  The view was spectacular, as we could see across the valley to where the last rim of red fiery light beautifully outlined the hills in the distance and could see 500 feet below us the dark ribbon that clearly must be the river we needed to reach. We could even see where they black shadow split to surely form the island that was near where our campsite was.  The only problem was that in the quickly fading light, we could see no way down the bluff to the river from where we were, and our map clearly indicated we were at a dead end with no connection to the actual trail.  From our bluff overlook, we could see a ridge well off to our left that clearly sloped down in the general direction of the island, but how to get there we did not know.

With no other real options, we started back up the gravel road, deciding that we would have to go back and try each the little trails again, hoping to find one that would lead us to the sloping ridge.  After a five minute hike, we found the first one and there our headlamps caught the first real sign in two hours that we were on a trail that lead to our campground, Amber’s Den.  The sign was high up in the trees, which is probably why we had missed it in the fading light originally.  Heartened by this finding, we hurried on.  The trail was split in several places, with no signs or other indication of the direction we should go, so we chose based on the GPS and on which trail seemed to be headed downhill.  Eventually, the trail became a sunken road, making it easier to follow in the darkness as it steadily dropped downhill.  The overgrowth of plants and tree branches on this sunken road made it obvious that no one had passed over the trail for a long time.  In one particular section, at the end of a steep descent, an enormous spider web spanned the trail.  PR and JPD tried to trick WVH into walking through, but he spotted the web and found a way through it.

After about two hours of hiking in the dark, the trail began to be very flat and we could hear the sound of bullfrogs.  We still could not see the river, but Jonathan spied a campfire ring in a elevated flat patch three or four feet above the trail and to the right of us. Although a single campfire ring seemed unlikely to be the actual Amber’s Den campground, it seemed a reasonable spot if we could just find the river nearby.  At that moment, PR said, “I think I know where the river is and picked up a rock and threw it into the dark space about 20 feet beyond the campfire ring.  Sure enough, we heard a kerplunk as it landed in the water.  We climbed to the flat area and investigated.  The drop to the water line from the campsite was too steep to comfortably try to filter water, so we decided to investigate the nearby area.  We dropped our packs and WVH led the way through some brush and such and we found a place a little further up the trail where the slope was much more gentle down to the water.    Deciding that even if this wasn’t Amber’s Den campground, it was a good enough spot for us, we set up camp.  There were some glass whiskey bottles and a bizaree looking collection of stalks placed next to a flat rock near the fire ring.  At some point, JPD realized they stalks and rock were an improvised chair back.  

Happy to finally reached our destination we settled in for the night. PR and WVH ate their squished sub sandwiches and regaled us with stories of the Tim Tebow loving women at the local store who had made them for them.  PR had lashed his sandwich to the top of his pack and we had joked the whole time about it having fallen off or one of us having eaten it.  JPD and I had had the foresight (thanks to a loving wife and mom) to have a delicious dinner to eat on the drive down, so we just topped off on some snacks. After about an hour of discussion on guns, soda bans in school, and other political topics, and watching giant beetles come to our head light, we settled down for the night.  JPD and I had only brought our sleeping bag liners, since after all, it was June in Tennessee, but by the middle of the night we were pretty cold.  I put on my rain coat and such and felt tolerably warm after that, but JPD was apparently cold all night.

Saturday, March 31, 2012

A pat on the back is better than a poke in the eye

There have been a few silver linings this week to break-up the general gloom of late.

First, I received this year's Teaching Award in my department.  It won't do anything to save my job if I don't get funded, but at least I feel appreciated by the students. Although I have always loved teaching, I really haven't done that much science teaching until this past year, so it has been really fulfilling to get the chance to that this year.  Also very time consuming.  So a pat on the back feels very nice right now.

The other good news came yesterday in that one of the three pilot grants my lab submitted to various University centers was funded.  While these pilot grants aren't a lot of money, it is enough money to pay about half of a post-doc salary for one year, (since post-doc salaries are so low), so I should be able to keep one person working in my lab when my major grant money runs out in August. So that was cheering news.

And last month I received an award from the local bike advocacy group that I had been an officer or board member for nearly a decade,  but have had to leave the board since I just don't have time with work, church, and family obligations.  I admit I pretty touched and greatly appreciated the recognition.

And one night this week, when I was pedaling home from work late at night, I saw the year's first fireflies.

Hard to be sad when there are fireflies again.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Springtime in Tennessee

Its hard not to feel a bit better about life, no matter how gloomy its personal aspects right now, when all of the trees are in bloom and the birds are coming back.  (Fortunately, so far, not our woodpecker friend.)  I love sitting in on our back porch and watching all the action.

Next week we will have lived in Tennessee for 13 years.  By my math, this is the longest I have lived in any single city, which seems somewhat surprising to me.  Its probably springtime in Tennessee that keeps us here.

Springtime is both the most beautiful time of the year in Tennessee and the most dangerous.  Perhaps the two go together. Spring really starts in February when the first flowers like tulips starts coming up and I suppose ends somewhere around the middle of May when school ends and the high humid summer set in.   The warmth and rain trigger all the new growth, but the instability of the weather patterns bring heavy rain, tornadoes, and thunderstorms.  Having seen the devastation of the first two, I was contemplating the possible effects of the third as I was riding home on my bike Thursday night.  The lightning strikes were awesome, majestic and jagged, but I couldn't help but be afraid that if one directly hit in the vicinity around me, I would probably be toast, literally.  Fortunately, my string of adverse events was not extended and I made it home safe, if entirely soaking wet.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

A Song of Sorrow

There is a song running through my head.  I admit I cried myself to sleep last night with it.

Its from an old Mormon musical, Saturday's Warrior, which was mostly worthless camp and fluff, but embedded within the story were a few nuggets of genuine humanity and insight.  This sung is sung by the parents  in their home and their son out on the streets as he has just run away from home with his group of friends (in the original version) or with his girlfriend (in a later revival.)

Didn't We Love Him

Parents: When he was just a little boy, things were different then...With eyes of trust he looked to us to lead the way.  Always bringing us his fears, we could laugh away his tears...But things were different then, when he was just a little boy.

Son: When I was just a little boy, things were different then, I followed them with child-like faith from day to day.  When I came to them with fears, they could wipe away my tears...But things were different then.  I was just a little boy.

Parents: The years have passed like summer dew upon the grass.  The little boy that held our hand grew up so fast.  There was a time he loved us, the way we love him now, but growing up has changed it all some how.

Didn't we love him?  Didn't we raise him well? Didn't we do our best in spite of all the pain? Would we do it all again and just the same? Where did we fail? What could we do more than we've done?  Didn't we love him?

Son: Why can't they love me? Why can't they understand? Why can't they see I'm not a child now, I'm a man? Can't they love me for the person that I am? Love me in spite of me? Why can't they love me?

Finale with interlapping parts: 
Didn't we love him?.... .............................. ..................Why can't they love me?
Didn't we raise him well? ..............................................Why can't they understand?
Didn't we do our best in spite of all the pain?................Can't they see I'm not a child now, I'm a man?
Would we do it all again and just the same? .................Can't they love me for the person that I am?
Didn't we.....................................................................Love me in spite of me?
Didn't we love him?

Sunday, January 15, 2012

In God's Country

This past winter break, on our way home from Utah, we stopped in Arches National Park for the day.  While I could write pages upon pages describing the incredible experience we had, I think these pictures will speak for themselves.



Delicate, Distant Arch





The Hand of... Rock

Parade of the Elephants (actual name)

Turrent Arch

South Window


Oh NO!

Double Arch



Sunset brings out the most beautiful red.



Based on these amazing landscapes, I can only think this is what Bono was singing about, "In God's Country."

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Summary of life and a never before shared experience

I think AM gets overwhelmed emotionally when she tries to write down memories of her dad, so I am posting the life sketch given by AM's brother at the funeral.  I have redacted the names and some dates for privacy. For me, I remember her dad most for his infectious laughter and love of life, his devoted loyalty to his family, and his love of sports. He was a humble and gentle guy, despite having been successful at many things.

"Born Hope, Kansas, the first of three children, to LBR and MHR. Hope is a small rural Kansas town of less than 500 people. They lived on the edge of town on about 5 acres of land, enough room for a vegetable garden, corn patch, and potato patch. There was a pasture for a calf or two to be raised as beef, a milk cow, roughly 50 chickens and 12 to 15 pigs they raised, sold, and butchered. J---, as he was called by all who knew him, had a wonderful childhood. He was free to roam the area fishing, playing, and riding his bike. It was a different world from the one we experience now. He was active in everything in school, sports, music, and school productions. He attended and graduated from Ottawa University in Ottawa, Kansas. He enlisted in the United States Marine Corps Reserve in February, 1952, while in college to assure he would be able to graduate as the Korean War was ongoing. While in school he met the love of his life, CN, and they were married in the First Baptist Church, Ottawa, Kansas in 1954.
Upon graduation J---- was assigned to attend the Marine Corps Officers Candidate School, Quantico, Virginia. After completing OCS he served for more than 20 years on active duty giving him 24 years of total service, which included three 13 month tours of duty overseas in Okinawa and Vietnam, of which a portion of his final tour in 1972 he was a POW in Vietnam. During that time the family moved from place to place staying within the United States as dad had concerns about living overseas. After Quantico, there were stops in Jacksonville, North Carolina ( where J--- and C joined the LDS church in 1958 ), Fort Scott, Kansas, Albany, Georgia, Pitman, New Jersey, Woodbury, New Jersey, back for a short time to Albany, Georgia, then Swarthmore, Pennsylvania, and Brookhaven, Pennsylvania.
Upon retirement from the corps as a Major in 1975 the family moved to Tempe, Arizona to adjust to civilian life. While living there he and C were sealed for time and eternity in the Mesa Arizona Temple. Later that year the family moved to Lehi, Utah, where he enjoyed two more successful careers. First he worked for the State Tax Commission starting as an entry level employee and eventually becoming the Assistant Director of Operations responsible for processing of all filed tax returns. After receiving a Master’s Degree in Business Management and a PhD in Economics he was made the Director of the Economics Unit of the State Tax Commission. He served a little over 16 years with the state. He then embarked on his last professional career of teaching as an adjunct professor of management and later of economics at several colleges in the Salt Lake area. He spent over 12 years teaching economics at Salt Lake Community College before retiring again. He spent the remaining portion of his life working and volunteering his services wherever he could make a contribution. He passed away after complications from hip replacement surgery."

One of the things we learned from the viewing and funeral was that AM's dad had been a POW in Vietnam.  I am not sure that any of AM's siblings ever knew this until her dad had had a special family fireside a few months ago and bore his testimony of various things that had happened in his life that testified to him that God lived and loved him.  I am including the text below of that experience, that was he had written down for that occasion.

"This event took place in Vietnam in the fall of 1972.  I was assigned to Camp Butler Okinawa. The 1st Marine division had been reassigned from Vietnam to Camp Pendleton, the 3rd Marine division had for the most part had been reassigned to Okinawa. They had left a lot of plant property in Vietnam and we were trying to account for what could be sent back to Okinawa, was worn out, or lost. I was sent to Denang, the headquarters of the Marine Expeditionary Force still left in Vietnam. In September, I was in the communications tent at the ammo dump at Denang.  They had a mess hall, a club, and quite a bit of property left there that was going to be turned over the Vietnamese. The tent flaps were open as it was a warm day, when I heard a few shots discharged outside.  I was on the telephone with the Force Supply Officer making a report on the findings.  He had become a friend of mine when I was stationed at 29 Palms, CA.  Anyway, into the front of the tent walked 2 or 3 VC in black pajamas.  I kept talking to the Col. and told him what was going on, so they knew what was happening as soon as it happened.  I kept talking to him until they pulled the wires out of the telephone.  There was from 15 to 18 of the VC and they had rounded up the Marine contingent that was there.  That proved to be 15 of us.  The Army of Vietnam soldiers that were security for the ammo dump had all dispersed and went into the jungle outside of the camp.  I am certain they knew what was happening and just left.  It was a terrible time then for we really had no security, unbeknownst to us.  They bound us with our hands in front and then all together into a tether line and marched us off into the jungle.  We followed the same creek/river the whole time.  I think the VC were all locals and lived in the villages close by, and had no real destination in mind.  I think they were really on their own.  We crossed the same creek/river several times and the VC would change. Some times there would be about a dozen and at other times almost 20.  We moved around in the elephant grass and woods at night, staying under cover in the day time.
Now I mentioned I had been on the phone when it all went down.  I think I mentioned to him to contact my friend at Albany, Col. Douglass.  I knew he knew Col. Douglass and that if he could get word to him, C--- would not have some stupid messenger arrive at the door or be put in any kind of unnecessary stress.  Anyway, Col. Douglass was informed and he and the Col. in Vietnam contacted the Aviation unit and they put up helicopters that we could hear overhead most days.  I don’t think they knew where we were until we left on the final day. 
The worst part of all of it was the terrible boiled rice we were fed and drinking out of the creek/river.  Dysentery set in and got to several of the guys. It ended up doing in 2 Marines and  really did get to me. My bottom end was never the same after that.  On day 63 I knew that I was getting in not good shape, and I had a strong feeling to act.  What happened from then on was all the Lord’s work.  I knew that I had not been as faithful a Priesthood holder as I could have been. I had been less than faithful in all things and was not the best vessel for the Lord to use, but I was it.  I was the only Priesthood holder in the group, I was the only church member in the group.  We were at the edge of the tree line that opened out into a field of elephant grass about 4 ft tall.  I heard the choppers close.  I put my hand to the square and said “In the name of Jesus Christ, and with the authority of the Holy Priesthood, set us free!” I took off with hands tied in the front and they all followed.  We ran about 100 yards into the grass and were spotted.  There were 3 choppers: one gun ship and two troop ships.  NOT ONE SHOT WAS FIRED AS WE RAN TO THE CHOPPERS AND LOADED UP.  That was all the work of the Lord.  I know that the Priesthood is real, and I know that God lives and knows us personally.  I know that, not just believe it!!!!  The purpose of this little document is to pass on that I know that God lives, that the Priesthood of God is real, and that he does look after us even when maybe we are not doing everything that we should be doing.
In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen, Dad."  

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Grandpa Dies

Several weeks ago, all our Christmas plans went up in smoke when we got a phone call at 2 in the morning from AM brother Jake telling her that their dad was dead. He had had hip replacement surgery several weeks before and had still been recovering when a blood clot from the area broke off and went to his lung.  He was 78 years old.

The initial plans were for the funeral to be on Saturday, which meant that we would need to fly out but as the arrangement went forward, it was decided to have the viewing Sunday evening and the funeral Monday morning, which gave us enough time to drive out.  So immediately after the kids classes were finished for the year, we started out for Utah.  29 hours later we arrived in Utah.  After stopping off at my mom's house to freshen up we went over to AM's oldest sister's home, where there was a large family gathering as by that time almost all the 13 kids and their families had arrived.

For our two girls, this was really the very first time that they had met most of their cousins, and for JPD he was so young that he probably didn't remember any of them well.   In addition to the AM's siblings, AM's two aunts had come up from Arizona, and this was the first time I had ever met them.  The one, aunt B, looks like a female spitting image of AM's dad.  She also had the same sense of humor and laugh.  (And the same interest in sports.)  Aunt C, was younger (only 70), and was a very fascinating person.  I am glad to finally meet them.

ENJOYING THE SNOW IN WYOMING REST STOP
MINIVAN PACKED FULL

SD WITH GRANDMA R AND COUSIN K

AM OLDER SISTER...GETTING READY TO LEAVE FOR THE VIEWING

AT THE VIEWING, SHARING THE LIFE OF MY DAD
Aunt C and Aunt B
THE GRAVESITE SERVICE
KIDS AFTER THE FUNERAL

EM with Grandma R